I went to www.brenebrown.com and started reading. She was describing her "midlife unraveling", what other people would call a midlife crisis. She was describing her story, but she was telling mine. How could she know, that like her, I built walls and put on armor and spent my feelings away. Or tried. And now I understand what part of my anxiety is about. Uncertainty. Weren't we supposed to grow up and know everything? Be in control? Make the world turn? NOT! This is not how life at my age is going down and I resent it, but at the same time, I am fascinated at the thought of what Brene' Brown calls "rebirth." We have to learn to drop the armor and tear down the walls and be truly ourselves. But, who are we? Who am I? Let's find out!
- lisabg3